A few years ago I remember praying a simple prayer that I meant deeply, “God, use me.”
At that time I didn’t really realize what I was praying, all I knew was that I was craving something deeper than the superficial things of this life. I wasn’t aware of how that prayer would be answered, of the crushing, of the suffering, of the losses, of the unanswered prayers, of the heartache … that would all take part in that prayer.
I found myself thinking, “If I would’ve seen even a glimpse of what would come from that prayer, I don’t know that I would have ever prayed it.” You see, we all want to be used by God but we don’t all want to go through what it takes to be used by Him. We are not all willing to go through the refining process. We are not willing to walk through the fire. We are not all willing to trust Him when our hearts are breaking. We’re not willing to have faith when our circumstances don’t match our logic. When we’re being crushed in ways no one else can see.
We want God to use us, just as long as our lives stay comfortable. As long as everything makes sense and things go according to our plans. We’re so afraid to be stripped of our very own sense of comfort and control.
But faith requires the opposite.
It requires complete surrender. Submission to the Father’s will.
We don’t have to understand it all to understand that God will use it for His glory. He is constantly working and moving, in ways we may not be able to fully comprehend, but we can trust that it is good, because He is good. Please know that you can trust Him. He will never fail you.
My God has not failed me. With that I in return can not fail Him.